Honor Thy Father

I had the opportunity to engage in a profound conversation with a Christian and religious Father. Our hour-long discussion was enlightening. It provided me with a sense of grounding and comfort, allowing me to open up about my struggles and confusion.

A Divine Move - AlphaGo

It brought me to question myself. There were times, situations, and events, where I had prevailed. How did I perceive myself? In circumstances that seemed dire and desperate, there was a slight chance that I had overcome. And thus, the caffeinated rush became my chance to ground myself in this world. That no matter how harsh the world maybe, I can win.

A Symbolic Night

Afar, to my left, a brightly lit City hovered above the water, and the reflection gave it a glistening effect. The City was a jewel, radiating all sorts of colors in all directions. I thought, "That's where I was thirty minutes ago." And on my right, I saw darkness, where lights faded. That's where I wanted to be. I chuckled a little and thought, "I could have fallen asleep at home." Yet, there I was, at a beach, with a reason to be there.

A guilty Confession

The frustration grew, and taking turns to listen didn't seem to work. I felt that I was a culprit and the victim. I taught myself this bad habit. The difference between then and now is that I proactively see the error of my ways and think that I am walking to salvation. Egotistical? Maybe I am a bit.

A tune to feel

A private moment in the shower and singing aloud feels liberating. I can be anything, feel anything and express anything I want in any form that pleases me. I can be a country singer and emphasize all the words with a deep voice. Or an artist who is singing and dancing at the same time. Or be a rock star with his cock-a-doodle-do out, literally.

And then, I saw myself at the window, just the reflection of my head. I found myself to be amused by staring at myself, staring at myself. I saw my past, my current self sitting and wondering, and a future self trying to figure out the next thing to do. I made funny faces, and then they all started to intertwine into one.

Journey to Poland log.3

A scenario best described would be to catch a train, on a work day, at the MBTA redline stop, in Downtown Crossing, Boston. Jammed with people, guaranteed to bump into something or someone.

Journey to Poland log.2

Fun fact, if you start to waddle to get to your seat, you entered the economy class. I was desperate to get to my designated position and put away my belongings. Dodged all the families, kids and grannies to the end of the airplane. Probably won't have any space near my seat.

Journey to Poland log.1

The fear of traveling alone to a place that I never been had made me pause and rethink many times. I found myself getting lost in the process each time I thought of all the things I would do and wouldn't do. Part of me wished to befriend the inner kid in me and did his best.

Unexpected overcast weather, I was walking along the sidewalk with my sunglasses on. The glare from the sun and specks of dust flying into your eyes can be quite unpleasant in the city.

I made great progress and learned a lot in short time, but it wasn't feasible. I know that someday it will come to fruition; however, the deadline was approaching fast. I still wanted to accomplish my goal.

Atomic Cafe

Atomic Cafe does not have a huge menu to confuse people. The menu itself is handwritten and just enough in length to spark up the interest. "Yes, that is what I want!" feels right.

How to deal with stress

Stress is undeniably one of the sneakiest factors that cause more than just headaches. Acknowledging that you are stressed is the first way to deal with it, and it's just the beginning.