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A Symbolic Night

Afar, to my left, a brightly lit City hovered above the water, and the reflection gave it a glistening effect. The City was a jewel, radiating all sorts of colors in all directions. I thought, "That's where I was thirty minutes ago." And on my right, I saw darkness, where lights faded. That's where I wanted to be. I chuckled a little and thought, "I could have fallen asleep at home." Yet, there I was, at a beach, with a reason to be there.

A guilty Confession

The frustration grew, and taking turns to listen didn't seem to work. I felt that I was a culprit and the victim. I taught myself this bad habit. The difference between then and now is that I proactively see the error of my ways and think that I am walking to salvation. Egotistical? Maybe I am a bit.

A tune to feel

A private moment in the shower and singing aloud feels liberating. I can be anything, feel anything and express anything I want in any form that pleases me. I can be a country singer and emphasize all the words with a deep voice. Or an artist who is singing and dancing at the same time. Or be a rock star with his cock-a-doodle-do out, literally.

And then, I saw myself at the window, just the reflection of my head. I found myself to be amused by staring at myself, staring at myself. I saw my past, my current self sitting and wondering, and a future self trying to figure out the next thing to do. I made funny faces, and then they all started to intertwine into one.

Unexpected overcast weather, I was walking along the sidewalk with my sunglasses on. The glare from the sun and specks of dust flying into your eyes can be quite unpleasant in the city.

I made great progress and learned a lot in short time, but it wasn't feasible. I know that someday it will come to fruition; however, the deadline was approaching fast. I still wanted to accomplish my goal.